Well here we go guys - It's been a while Im not going to go over the last 6 months of my life and lay it all out like a Christmas ham, I dont think theres enough time in the world for all of that. Hopefully as I get back into posting you can piece it all together for yourself. I got taken off all my meds yesterday and put on Aderol. Needless to say I took my first dose and felt like I was coked out of my mind. What an akward feeling having all the side effects of drugging but being drug free. I even fell down and busted my ass in the Subway parking lot because I was so dizzy. It was weird. Then I died my hair platnum blonde. What the hell. TJ just sat there lookin at me like I was a crazy person - it was kinda cute. He had mentioned a week or so ago that he loved freshly squeezed orange juice so last night I made a sneaky visit to the grocery store and bought 5 oranges. To my dismay they didnt have a strainer thing. So at 8 this morning I was up squeezing the shit out of 5 oranges. It barely filled a small glass. Rediculous but I thought it was an extremely cute gesture. hehe We're still undecided when it comes to where we stand. I ALMOST dont care, I guess. Yesterday was a fabulous day. I finally got a car which is awesome. Saw some old friends from treatment, and even met a stranger for a long over due cup of coffee. And damn his little plane ride cuz Im feinding some good conversation. Living in a house full of women the conversation usually consists of money, men, sex toys, and how much we don't want to go to work. Its peachy. P.S. For the record I do not use sex toys - I have a motto - If I need ass that bad I call a boy, not the energizer bunny. You get me? I might be moving on Sunday. Living in a basement but I dont care. I bought some Christmas lites to hang down there. Im going to try to give it a lofty feel I guess. Which is kind of backwards considering I will be subteriane. Oh well. When it rains it pours people. They're frekin commin out of the woodworks I tell you. 1 point for the sobriety team. Speaking of that I have 5 months clean time on the 9th. Woohoo!!!! I also had a birthday. The big 21 people. I guess as they say it's all down hill from here. I dont think so. I think its all just begun. I know we both wanted to. And i actually think it could have worked. Why was there a pause in the car. It was like one of those silent you know what I want to do type of things and I felt like if I looked over for too long I would loose myself again. Thats something I cant afford. It had to be quick. Impulsive. Full of antici pation. Well I guess that wasnt so much code as it was obvious. Oh well. Whats the point anyways, we know we were both thinking it.